We can change our reality

There will always be something to learn, transmute, heal, grow from.I survived my biggest chaos from my past (violence, bullying, lack of support and understanding for my neurodiversity, loneliness, exploitation, gaslighting, oppression, illness, unhealthy environments, fail after fail, lack paradigm and victim paradigm, self-harm, suicidal thoughts and attempts).I chose to live, and now I work on my microcosm every day, asking what else is hiding that wants to be heard, expressed, processed and integrated.As of 2025, I wish to help others navigate their labyrinths with my voice and words, as a friend I wished I had back then.The only one who can truly save us is ourselves, but it's easy to lose sight in the fog. Some of us, who have successfully exited the fog have healed enough now that we are ready to hold the torch and guide the way for others. I choose to walk with that squad, doing what we can to spread self-awareness, connected-awareness, love, kindness, sovereignty, and the strength and will power to make the changes we need to find peace and happiness.Scroll down for more...

Microcosms &
Macrocosms

The microcosm reflects the macrocosm.The wars we witness or partake in, the beautiful sunny quiet days, everything is connected.Our microcosms are so sacred, yet we fall into habits of abusing them with neglect, pressure, self-hate - all of which act like droughts, hurricanes and floods inside.And as a result, we become fatigued, hostile, depressed, etc.What would happen if, the next time we feel that bubbling anger when someone triggers us, instead of allowing our hurt ego to respond and try to win this illusionary competition, we choose to simply walk away, with our head high? What would that choice create for our microcosm? And as a result, what would that choice create for the macrocosm? There's a ripple / butterfly effect there that would not only effect us and our competitor, but also all the people, flora and fauna, scenarios that we meet after that choice.

If we remembered that we have a whole world of living beings within us, would we find the wisdom and clarity to protect them in any way we can? Would we then finally be bravely open to learning about all our negative behaviours, to help us look after our microcosm?Here's an affirmation, a gift from me to you / me / us, in honour of those beautiful universes inside of us..."I am the proud and loving carer of all that lives within me".When we choose self-love, we are actually choosing love for others too. Choosing to rest when we need to, or cry when we need to, is love for that whole microcosm.And self-love really does look good on us!Our skin glows, we shed what we don't need to hold anymore, and we enjoy life more. We have more energy and endurance, acting and feeling younger because our machine, our body, is functioning at optimal level, releasing waste more efficiently, regenerating with grace as well as speed.Therefore self-love is again selfless, because we encourage others to want to find that peace within, thus helping save their microcosms too! In relation to how our beautiful friends, the dodos make me feel, I don't want a whole universe (microcosm) to be wiped out before our time.

Philosophy &
Spirituality

Philosophy and Spirituality have always guided me through any chaos, illusion, or despair.Being open to all belief systems is an integral choice I've made since before I can remember. All walks of life, all perspectives hold wisdom. Even the ones that aren't obvious, or make mistakes.In Science and Philosophy, I've often heard that mistakes are extremely important in finding successes.If we overlook the wisdom from mistakes, we miss out on half of what make us us. I'm still learning how to hold grace for my autistic meltdowns, or CPTSD triggers.Kindness is the only way.Buddhism reminds me that we all suffer. It's part of our journey. So with that knowledge, we can choose to introspectively navigate and understand what makes us suffer as individuals. We can also, with that knowledge, see where we can put our energy into helping others with their suffering, by learning about what makes us collectively suffer.

Tao reminds me that everything is exactly as nature intends, as Tao intends. The push and pull, the release, the chaos, the peace - all part of a beautiful eternal dance of energy, cause and effect. Therefore you and I don't need to be "fixed". We just need to remember.Quantum reminds me that everything is connected - a beautiful web of infinite dimensions and possibilities. It reminds me that I don't need to be stuck in a paradigm, or conditions I don't like. There is a version of me that is not experiencing that pain and suffering. So I choose to jump timelines by simply shifting my perspective and one day saying, "no, I refuse to accept these conditions". That change of perspective changes the trajectory of my future pathway, opening doors I could never of imagined possible with my old glass-half-empty perspective.There are so many beautiful ancient teachings that have stood the test of time for a reason. Hinduism, Paganism, Christianity. Remove the negative connotations from the word "religion" and these are simply more forms of Philosophy. Mystic branch offs from the most commonly known religions, such as the Kabbalah (Jewish mysticism) or Sufism (Islamic mysticism). Ancient Egyptian or Greek spirituality, so many Greats who studied philosophy - Plato, Aristotle, Laozi (Taoism). There's Philosophy to find in writers like Edgar Alan Poe and Shakespeare, or musicians like Björk and Iman Europe.Instead of us picking sides, why don't we choose to delve into the history and teachings from all these different walks of life, from all of space and time, and gather a collage of things we resonate with from all of them, instead of just focusing on what sets us apart? That is the form of the world I choose to look at and be a part of.

Life A &
Life B

We "die", and are reborn, infinite times.An event or a thought form can lead to another "death" - where something within us, or an old identity is laid to rest, changing our paradigm or pathway.Every day is another birth; every Moon illuminates another death. It is in our nature.We shed skin non-stop. I now look at "deaths" as a snake shedding their skin, whatever shape or form that "death" is expressed as, whether physical, spiritual, abstract, symbolic, etc.Me and my husband are blessed with an insight given to us by our past chaos. We call before Life A, and now Life B. This has helped categorise and distinguish the differences between our past glass-actually-empty perspectives, and our present glass-overflowing perspectives.

Life A illusions:

Life B truths: